Sometimes life hits you hard, speaking mentally versus physically for me. Death has never been the easiest of things for me to take, and especially when it seems to make people suffer so much before the end. Family visits like the last one can be so exhausting and I don’t expect it to improve anytime soon.
Add to that I’m awkward in dealing with many issues of a more mental nature. Probably because I have my hands full trying to keep my own brain working properly through my own issues. LOL
Friends with depression that still function through life, I can handle. Know a few with bi-polar, few living on meds, etc. The individuals just being stupid in their decisions about life…nah…no patience whatsoever with. They don’t want to talk to me, would only hear “get your foot out of your a**”. Worked hard all my life, good jobs and crap ones. Set aside my dreams for 26 years to take care of family first, went beyond my responsibilities to them…no sympathy from me. I’ve known my life goal since the age of ten, but spent many years taking care of business before being able to reach my dream. Not saying you need to set it aside as long as I did, but you do need to take care of your own responsibilities and go for your dreams, responsibly.
But now there’s dementia in one, and an undefined mental illness that’s drastically changed someone close to me in the works. Those are areas I can’t handle. My insides just shake and well, you know when you’ve reached your personal limit on what you’re capably of handling…that’s me.
Then to find another close to you was just diagnosed with cancer and given 2-3 years. Emphasize another. Way way too many.
This came about in the midst of already dealing with one member on other side of family living his last days under very stressful circumstances. Get back to hotel, feeling like I wanted nothing more than to “crawl under my virtual rock called Inworldz” and build where things were still sane…only to get a call to get to hospital few hours later and spend the night there with my mother. She’s okay now, but utter exhaustion!
Experiences like the ones hitting us this year really do put things into perspective. Make you reconsider what’s important in life and what’s not.
Oddly, or how many would consider odd, is how important my virtual world is to me now. I realize its true value is in the strength it gives me to live through life’s challenges. Being able to create and build and share those creations with others is a huge stress relief. Same with the writing, the art, the other hobbies we enjoy.
You don’t hear a lot about this from those using games as a way to de-stress and gain strength to meet life’s challenging moments. We’re usually quiet about the importance of this…normally just showing off what we made and saying we love being there.
The ones you hear about are the ones using virtual living as a crutch to avoid life. So, people ignorant of how these worlds truly work, assume the worse sometimes. That’s another topic and not what I’m talking about here.
I’m just saying how recently I’ve realized how my virtual world work has become a valuable tool for me in handling the life stress. Give me an hour of building and playing with my critters and I can tackle that Real World issue a little better.
Now that’s out of the way…hey, how about some updates?
I’m nearly finished with the outdoor set up of the stores on the ground floor. These first pictures deal with that level.
There’s more work to do at the breedables level 3000m up. Three more buildings to finish creating for the one side, Lindren’s cottage needs decorating again before the Silverwood Memorial is complete, Mystic has one memorial section to finish in the community memorial area and I have one to finish there too. Plus a few landscaping items to add in here and there. Still have to get the corral pieces out and set for sale, plus some other items for animals.
I’ve rearranged to open it up a little as it seemed to be to bog down a bit with all the alphas in place, or I assume that was the cause. Think it’s working well now, I’ve had a few good comments in from visitors so far. Myst/Uru players may recognize our backdrop.
Everything’s good. I’ve switched to Singularity viewer and love the results. FPS didn’t increase, but it runs a lot smoother and the textures rez in way better for me. And so much clearer!
Only issue I have is I cannot set my animals and bundles for sale in it. I can create and set something for sale so it must be either confined to no-copy items or items made by someone else. Still investigating that issue.
Oyos people still complain of their horses not eating or not breeding or other things. They are quick to blame the 2X2’s for messing with scripts. Not sure I buy that. I have about 60 breeding animals at my 2X2 and have no issues with them at all. In fact, I’ve been building a lot there too and haven’t had issues with anything.
I sure hope the creators are working with Inworldz to track this down properly, not just blaming the grid. There was an update around the same time on the animals. It needs to be looked into also. And I’m sure Inworldz IT dept would find the information valuable for their work if there is a conflict of some sort going on after 2X2’s were initiated. Breedables aren’t the only scripted items players use.
Heavy work week here, lots of book files to get ready for Marion Margaret Press, plus client jobs, but hope to get some time to work in Inworldz and update here again soon. Lots of custom made trees and tree houses may happen. 🙂
Dunvalos Reach Breedables, Landscaping, Corrals, and Memorial Area
Dunvalos Reach Main LM on ground floor