As it happened with my family growing up, I’m also a bit of the fabled black sheep of my friends in the writing world. They’re not virtual world gamers, the readers we’re connecting to are not virtual world gamers. And I am. That’s where I express myself and pay tribute to various causes and people.
Including today for Sandie Bergen’s Remembrance Day, the day of her memorial which takes place thousands of miles from me.
My two avatars, Tempest Myst and Marion Margaret, are Inworldz to be on standby for all day and into the evening if possible. To remember Sandie and to be there to help guide anyone who may want to come in and do so in an environment they’re unfamiliar with.
To be honest, I don’t expect much action. I anticipated that and made a visual guide online to Silverwood for all to enjoy. And Sixty visitors have checked it out.
Could be just a tough day too. It is a work day for most and most will be gearing up to spend time with their special someone tomorrow on the day many think of “forced affection day”. I laugh at that. Because I know how to do it right. I don’t need a forced affection day. I force my sweetie to give me affection every day. 🙂
Sandie used to laugh at all my attitudes on this holiday. I miss that.
I miss a lot. She really was my daily friend, probably closer to her than I’ve been to most, even in person. Perhaps because the internet provides a certain amount of space between friends that you don’t find in real life. Easier to concentrate on the good and those things you agree with than the bad. When you start off with the good, and ten years ago, we did just that.
What truly surprised me about this experience is that when I told people physically around me about losing Sandie, they knew immediately who I was talking about without explanation, and was consoling in the way they would have been if I had told them it was a family member.
My brain was locked in a pool of muck after she went into the hospital. Her situation was one I’m all too familiar with as it runs in my family, and I never wished for her or her family to be put into that situation.
But things are clearing up for me and I’m going to go out refreshed into the world. No more ‘dealing with it’ when it comes to certain things in life. Goals mean something now. And so much more.
The writing muse is active again, and I’m rejoining OWW where I first met Sandie, Steve, Elizabeth, and so many more who are on similar paths. The process of critiquing others is very helpful in getting the mind to work properly.
I’m also back into Holly Lisle’s forums and working my way through the courses again. Which is good for me. It’s been a long time, back in 2006 when I became a member and student. Good to get back to the basics and find myself again.
Sandie taught me a lot about life and about living. Today I remember that. Tomorrow I live it.